Sunday, March 09, 2008

hey.

havent blogged since our eagerly anticipated results came out. it came as a major shock to me. both good and bad.

i remembered bitching to half the world how clueless i was when i did my econs papers. not knowing the difference between nominal and real interest rates. write 2 full pages on the asian charter in my international trade essay. doing the extremely crazy elasticity question. crapping about china brazil and russia and the whole supermarket drqs. maybe its because i held thru to God that he would carry me through for econs. and reagan reassured me that i would be fine too. and maybe its abit of a nudge in the career path he wants me to take. haha. the irony of it all. but we know that God turns our stumbling blocks into our new stepping stones. haha.

den the negatively shocking part. my class topping lit got a D. and my usually either average or occasionally above average GP went all the way down to an E. i guess God was teaching me about complacency. about dependency. and about exceedingly and abundantly only according to the power that works in US. if you dont write a GP essay or practice a compre for 2 entire terms before ur A levels. something crappy is bound to happen. if ur hailed as a genius but fail to submit a single piece of extra work while everyone else is doing it. den something crappy is bound to happen. life lesson learnt. haha.

still. i dont wanna look back. ever. its been like 3 near misses in my educational journey. i wanna change something. i remember telling myself. i wish i could record down this feeling of anger towards myself, and this anxiety and play it to myself if i ever lose my motivation again in the future. i hope taking SATs can consolodate my GP scores.

and i wanna thank baby for being really supportive. for trying to comfort me even thou she wasnt in the best of moods. for buying me the yoshi [yes, i like yoshi] soft toy to cheer me up. hahahhaa. i love u dear!

den theres another thing. ns. busy busy busy. stress stress stress. haha. caleb and evans gave me good advice tho. thanks alot! i really wanna be fitter for my baby la. so we look more physically compatible. shes so skinny and right now i m alittle to fat. even thou i manage to deceive most people with my broad shoulders that i m buff. hahahhaa. and i wanna look nice in clothes too.

yup. prolly one of the last few updates before i go in. baby dear! i love u! thanks for being strong for me! sorry i m too lazy to post any nice pics. haha.

|cowpoo| 11:33 PM|

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